🌙 🌺 Reminiscing, and a short update on the sleep experiment.

14 Jul, 2025

I said I'd be keeping you up to date. That didn't happen, so I'll give a short recap paragraph then do my proper blogpost for the day.

Recap of the last few days: Sleep schedule has continued to march later in the day still, albeit it is far more anchored. On the 8th I awoke at 5am, then it was 4:45, back to 5, 5:30, 6:00, then 6 am another couple of times. Sleeping has tended to hang around 6-9pm, although last night it was especially late at 1am owing to some late-night stress combined with an addiction to Pale by Wildblow.

It is the day before graduation. When I go up and get whatever certificate they give me, that will be the closing of what was, so far, the best chapter of my life. My parents are arriving today, staying at a hotel, going to the graduation tomorrow and then leaving after lunch. And then, it'll be done.

I still haven't decided what to do with my career. Really I could see myself doing just about anything, but I don't think I could see myself programming. My degree was on it, and I got a half-decent grade, but it's just... too frustrating. I think. I guess I'm just not really very connected to what I do as a job.

I'm going to miss Yoko's. It's a nightclub here - the closest thing we have to a gay bar in a town with a population of 10k when the university students are home, and nearly 30k when they're not. It has this glowing artificial tree in the middle, which sounds silly when you're sober, but when you're so drunk your legs begin to give way beneath you, and the music blurs in that wonderful way - it's the most ephemeral thing I can think of.
The lights flickering as that one drag queen closes up the show, then walking home, my friend complaining about her wig being on too tight, popping to the nearest 24/7 convenience store for the most awful cheeseburgers and some sweets, going to our flat together, then burning down the next few hours of moonlight watching some musical or movie.
Sometimes, with other friends. Sometimes without. ^{new queers click this ->1}

I'm going to miss my favourite spot. I'm going to miss the calm waves we get here.

I'm not going to miss my friends though. I'll be visiting them too much for that.

Stay peaceful,
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